I knew deep in my heart that jasmoseley.com had to happen. I don't know what my life would be like if I didn't have an outlet in my life. When it comes to being passionate, it can be the most euphoric experience when you discover that "thing" that brings you to life. I never wanted to be that person just trying to get through each day. I wanted to live.
I remember around March 2008 during my second semester as a freshman at Temple, I was speaking to an adviser to schedule classes for my sophomore year. As a business student at the Richard J. Fox School of Business, open advising hours were like Black Friday; the earlier you got there, the better. As I sat in the neatly organized- semi O.C.D office of the adviser, she tilted her head and asked "Do you think Fox is where you belong? Because I don't think you can be successful here. Have you thought about switching majors?" Granted I didn't do so hot in 2 classes, but the condescending tone put me on edge. In those days, I was very shy and timid, but this was one of the moments of my life that slowly broke me out of it. I replied "Of course I belong here. It's true, I had a difficult first semester, but I am not trying to leave. I am not going to give up because of a difficult time. I am where I belong." The adviser went through this long rant about the business school and so on... things that I started to tune out. Then she asked "What are you trying to do after graduation?" I sat in the chair upright, then slightly tilted my head and said "Of course finding a job with an excellent company would be an ideal thing to do, it's probably something I will have to do at first. Realistically, I want to have something of my own." I could tell she was not really interested in what I had to say. She then replied "Everyone says that they want to be an entrepreneur..." At this point I was done talking and was heading out. I thanked her for her time, even though I really didn't want to. In my head I said "One day I will do something great... I just know it." This was before JasMoseley ever became a thought, before I ever thought about Youtube or even blogging. I was completely lost and did not know what I was good at... or I didn't realize what I was good at, more so where my passion was.
Passion is a mysterious thing. It's like the man of your dreams running across the shore on a deserted island.The world of beauty and fashion is a major outlet for me and always staring me in the face. Whenever I had a crappy day I would play in makeup and start blending color combinations from art I was inspired by, one day it was inspiration from Van Gough, the next day I would blend greens and gold hues inspired by a Frida Kahlo painting. Another way to relieve my stress from a long day was to go through my French and Spanish Vogue ogling clothes I can't even afford. I loved the textures, the shapes of the pieces and how they jumped from the glossy pages. Chanel, Moschino, Givenchy, Diane Von Furstenburg... I would just imagine and dream. I soon realized that the world of beauty and all things girly was a major fit for me, it made me feel like I was in my own world... I was happy.
A wise woman, named Fabienne Fredrickson said " The things you are passionate about are not random. They are your calling." This really hit home for me. I knew I couldn't just sit around and let all of these ideas float in my head, I had to be creative. First it was Youtube, which I still do and will continue to do, but I wanted to present myself more than just a face. I wanted to make an impact on the lives of women around the world and connect with them, bring them a little joy in their lives. That is why I have more than just beauty and fashion content on jasmoseley.com. I wanted women to feel like a boss, so I added post about career advice, life lessons and affairs of the heart to let women know that they are not alone in their journey through life. When it comes to passion you can not fight it. It lives with you. It breathes with you. I go to bed with JasMoseley on my mind, because I am constantly trying to think of what to do next. When I first started everything I knew I was not the Michelle Phan of the Youtubing world, or Stephen King when it came to writing my post. JasMoseley is something that I truly need to work at every waking day. It's about progression, not perfection. Cracking open my laptop and creating a new post or filming a video is like Christmas, except the presents are from myself. I hope that everyone at some point in their life finds a passion. I never thought that I would find it and thought passion was only for lucky people.Finding my passion proved to me that it is possible to create your own luck.