Life As I Know It

It’s a new day and a new year… I am not going to be cliché and say “New Year-New Me” because I am a firm believer that one must always re-invent their self. I don’t mean in a Madonna circa every decade sort of sense, but being a person who is constantly learning and growing; a person who is willing to take what life throws at them.

I am not going to lie; I began to burn myself out these last couple of months. Instead of just going with the flow and following my destiny, I was trying to outrun it and make things happen fast and on my time. Who wouldn’t want their brain child to be a go to sanctuary for millions?  By wanting all of my thoughts to come together to make a masterpiece, on top of working a nine to five office job, I literally ran my mind and body to the ground.

I said from the beginning that I would keep everything one hundred for those of you who are interested in following my journey in creating a brand. Turning my passion into a lifestyle is no easy task, especially as a one woman show.  As someone who is in charge of all aspects of running the site, I am constantly on my toes… I swear I am connected to every social network known to man. With all of this, I made a resolution to myself – JUST GO WITH THE FLOW.

As a results oriented person I am constantly racking my brain. If I don’t see exponential results immediately I begin to think that I am failing or something is just not right. These past couple of months I have been emailing web development companies left and right to find someone who can create a new platform for my website. I guess some of these companies thought I was a trust fund baby and quoted me thousands beyond thousands of dollars to plan and execute the project. I took another approach by reaching out to freelancers, giving them the pitch of what I am currently doing and where I want to take JasMoseley. I’m not sure if the people I emailed thought I was insane, delusional, just over confident or all of the above, but I didn’t get a single reply. There is only so much discouragement one can take before they just give up, but instead of giving up I decided to take a much needed mental break.

Ever since I was a kid in school, I always strive to succeed. I would worry about things that most people my age could care less about, one being succeeding in my pursuits. Most would say it is very neurotic to worry about things that are not necessarily measurable. Success, in reality, can only be determined by the individual seeking it. For a long time I thought success was about reaching the “end-all-be-all” goal, but I feel differently as I get older. Success is all around me- hell writing another post after my hiatus is a sign of success. One thing that I am going to take into 2015 is living in the moment and keeping in mind that I don’t have to race to reach my goals. Remaining patient and growing as an individual are key to growing all other aspects of my life.  Everything will fall into place at its own time.