Nothing is perfect. The stars do not always align to write out "The Time Is Now" to signal that you are in a risk free zone to pursue your dream. For years I was the person who over-calculated anything and everything. I had to have certainty of the end result to my actions. Whether it was spending money, my career choice and hobbies I felt like the safe route was the way to go and I will somehow be miraculously rewarded with the life of my dreams some day. Little did I know at the time I was holding myself back; the only way I could have the life of my dreams is if I worked for it, which will require taking risk and doing things that are not always the straight and narrow path.
I know you are asking "So, Jasmine... what is the life of your dreams?" The life I always envisioned was a life of freedom; freedom to call my own shots, be creative and touch lives. I want to be a testament that you can do anything you want as long as you put a full effort and use your hustle muscle. I remember watching trendy beauty and fashion bloggers who graced magazines and sat on the sides of catwalks during Fashion Week and saying "I wish I was living that life, I want to be them... but I don't have the best video software, I don't have the best camera equipment, I don't have the writing skills, I don't have the right computer...". When I kept hearing myself repeat "I don't" over 3 million times I realized I am never going to get anywhere if I don't start somewhere. I took the risk to blindly get into blogging like the people I admired. This was not typical of me because the old me would have waited until I had every piece of equipment I needed to start. But I knew that I would find a reason why I couldn't due to some other imperfection. I started with two empty boxes as a tripod, my Mom's Canon T3I and a very shy self who had to put the pieces together... and I am learning something new every day to achieve my dream.
Do I have the "it factor"? Who knows. Will I ever be successful at what I am doing? We will see. All I know is waiting around for the stars to align is not a way to live your life. I have realized that taking things one day at a time, while experimenting and testing your limits is better than having every single thing in life be predictable. How can you learn and grow if you know the answer to everything? How can you feel accomplished if you keeping waiting for a perfect moment to pursue what you want in life? The beauty in life is striving to be the person who you are meant to be while filling in the gaps... not waiting for all the pieces to be on your lap.